March Virus is Heart Breaking

Well so many stories of local fear I don’t even know where to begin…

Was walking the dog and saw a man with a full bullet proof outfit on and packing two guns… That was weird. No I did not engage but really wanted to talk to him…

Here is a post from one of my favorite Landscaper who not only employed hard working people but pays taxes and is licensed in Hansville: So sad… As Hansville has a LARGE immigrant group of landscapers that works under the tax table and don’t have to adhere to the Business shutdowns.

“Saying good-bye to my work force was heartbreaking to say the least, people who have done everything right and have exuded the greatest example of what a hard working, taxpaying US citizen is, was something I will never forget! So today, was the day all “non essential” workers were told to stay home by edict of the State of Washington and Kitsap County but apparently that order was only for licensed contractors because I couldn’t help but notice unlicensed landscapers working all over Hansville and Driftwood Keys! I asked one gentleman in a white chevy pickup & Dump trailer on Hood Canal Dr. why he was working and he told me he is just a gardener and that I should do whatever I should do! Also today, licensed contractors on Bainbridge Is. were being fined $1000 for working when they weren’t supposed to! Myself and others are writing letters to as many local and State officials as we possibly can to help with this disparity I hope my local neighbors can truly understand the situation we are in before things get out of hand!”

Another interesting thing to watch is all the people who are pointing out all the wrong doings around here. Lots of angry people, some on board with the fear they are going to die, and a few that are just plan perplexed at the fear mongering and that people are buying all this fear of this virus… on and on… Grocery store is price hiking – Cornish Game hen before this nightmare – 3.99 each, today $8 each… WHY???

So how are you coping with all this? Nonsense or REAL THREAT – doesn’t really matter as we are all going to be in a depression in the FALL… But hey at least we are still alive right? mmmmm

Also an added bonus the normal regular flu will slow down right?

Vaccine Trauma

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On August 19th 2019, I received a TDAP for in processing to a new position at a hospital. That night I began to feel as though my left foot had fallen asleep. I went to take a shower and the water hitting my left leg felt like fire. 

Symptoms continued to progress. Now the left side of my body feels like it is on fire 24/7. It is extremely sensitive to touch and temperature changes. My right leg and right arm are numb and weak. I have severe neck pain, lower back pain and headaches. I’ve lost the ability to feel my penis and can not feel urination. I am constantly lightheaded and dizzy. I have had multiple falls which has caused severe anxiety. 

I have been admitted into the hospital 3 times. I’ve had 3 rounds of IV steroids, 7 rounds of plex, 1 round IV antibiotics, multiple lumbar punctures, MRIs, CTs, XRays and other procedures. My working diagnosis is ADEM and Transverse myelitis from the vaccine. 

I went from being a very active dad and healthcare provider to needing a cane to walk and being in constant pain. I may never be able to work again.

Today I closed my Social Media Accounts

Howdy there, Wow I did a thing that I’m a little uneasy about. I’m trying something new. Why? Have you ever just examined how much time you really spend doing something? For me, as I age it seems like I keep running out of time in a day… I have no energy to get much done. Now it could be a medical problem but I doubt it… So today I closed my Facebook Account, and Twitter Account and Instagram Account in hopes that I will create more, read more, get more done around the house, be more present (Quit thinking of the Past, or worrying about the Future that may never come)

I have been thinking about this for a while. Sometimes seeing too much into someone’s else’s life, it just makes you think yours isn’t so great. Social media is almost like being able to mind read your loved ones. Which can be exciting but hurtful too. If someone want me to know something about their lives they can call me or tell me in person. Direct Contacts if you dare. hehehe

There is nothing worse than really wanting a visit from a loved one, it’s on the books only to learn that they did something way more fun. The sad thing is the person hurt was not the intention. Social Media doesn’t explain why someone chose to do something different with their time. Sigh…. And it is also a vicious way to hurt someone if it was intentional….

I cherish my connections with people, but it’s time to do it up close and personal instead of behind a computer screen. There is so much information lost and misinterpretation going on. I just read the AWESOME Book called “Lost Connections” it has an entire chapter on this issue. Worth a read… It will be interesting to see if my relationships will become closer or not… Kind of like a Social Studies experiment I guess….

Love your comments on this action…..

Vaccine Harm is real

WA State board of health is looking to add HPV vaccine to required list for daycare and school. If you oppose this please write your congressman… https://www.clarkcountytoday.com/opinion/letter-the-washington-board-of-health-is-set-to-consider-adding-gardasil-injections-to-school-requirement/

There a great book “The Panic Virus” that talks about the harms from getting vaccines, the benefits, people who choose not to vaccinate their children and so much more. It’s a great read for new parents out there trying to decide what is right for their kids and themselves. https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3127438/

If it wasn’t for the vaccine scare – the makers of vaccines would never have had to change their formulas to exclude the harmful substance that have affected so many children’s lives.

So now that they have fixed the problems they discovered with this scrutiny by the people regarding the ingredients that could be harmful to humans in vaccines are we in the clear???? How can we better ensure this doesn’t keep happening with new vaccines? I wish I had access to my own lab for I could test the stuff before they inject it into me.

Thyroid Coma

Well lets talk Thyroids. Mine has decided to become bipolar. 8 weeks ago I was tested as I have Hashimoto’s Thyroid issues and I take meds for it. Once a year I have to get my TSH levels checked to make sure Im medicated appropriately.

So 8 weeks ago my Thyroid results were .08 so Doc cut back my meds and when I was tested 8 weeks later the results were totally in the opposite direction 64….. That is a huge swing. The odd thing was when it was .08 I felt great but half way through the 8 weeks on new meds I started feeling super tired, now I am sleeping basically part of the day, and in bed snoring by 8:30….. My muscles are completely complaining. Not a fun feeling. So she upped my meds and now I wait another 8 weeks in hopes I am normal again. Sad thing is there is no way to instantly take a pill and feel better either, this TSH game takes time to get levels up to where they should be.

Taking too much of Thyroid medicine can cause some serious health problems, including

So why did this happen say you? Well in my case it is one where my immune system is either attacking my thyroid making it nonfunctional behaving which I don’t have any idea it’s happening then I don’t need my thyroid meds as my thyroid isn’t being attacked. So for me it’s a yo yo life as when thyroid levels get out of whack so does one’s emotions.

Holy cow my emotions are everywhere but where they should be. But at least I can self talk myself out of most of the stupid thinking my brain feels it needs to engage in. hehehe

For example: I am drawn towards bad news when Im out of whack. It’s like I need it for energy or something and then I wonder why Im so sad all the time. I stop, play the Gratitude game, remind myself it’s just my biology trying to correct itself and the only thing that is going to help is time so accept what you can’t change and move on…

I know easier said than done. However it is fun to watch funny videos or go do something nice for someone that always perks me up so off to bake for my neighbor who is on hospice she is craving baked goods. So sour cherry sweet bread is in the oven, and my cinnamon Babka is churning in the bread machine….

What are you doing for the holidays

It’s that time of year again. Everyone who has family is with family or planning to be with family. The coordinations can be disappointing and can make one feel lonely. Sometimes Christmas alone is just want one needs. This is my mantra to get me through the season as I have a partner that doesn’t like socializing and it’s his year to do what he wants.

So if I lived in an altered universe where one didn’t have to be considerate and kind to one’s partners I think I would take a surprise trip to Greece to hang with my sister who does so much during the holidays feeling lonely would not be felt let alone in my vocabulary.

Or mmm a trip to Arizona and visit my neighbor hood friends who live there during the winter months. Ooo that would be fun.

Or crashing someone’s Christmas party but hate that because then they ask where my partner is and then I feel awkward.

Would love to do a road trip with someone funny like The Backus…. who is a dear friend I have had since like 4th grade.

OOO just drive to my home town and visit my friend’s family who was like my second family growing up, just drop in on them….

ooo I could take my dog and go to the local nursing home and hang out with crazy older people. They are always happy to see someone.. ooo I just might do that!

What do you do on the holidays if you are alone? Inquiring minds want to know.

Unconditioned Consciousness

Letting go of the concept of ourselves to discover who we truly are. What a concept…mmmm How the heck does one do that? I am listening to an interesting interview https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HHhEPUp5X_I. Pondering…….

Need to discover my inner reality… ooo this could be fun (heaven)… or horrifying(hell)…

Find the dimension of inner spaciousness. Uncluttered mind. No thought. Inter alter stills? mmmm what the heck… and I do this? Can I sense these dimension in other people? How do you get to know that person’s inner self? Beyond your personality, the unconditioned self recognition. Recognize everyone as yourself? We are all one big consciousness? mmmm

So there is a form identity and then there is a being identity – need to have access self transcendence.

Unconsciousness in spiritual terms means you are reacting to a situation that is using what behaviors you have learned good or bad…. This is the mode one is in when they are on drugs so obviously their behavior is worse than if they were sober… The goal in life when you are struggling is to be conscious on a deeper level so that you can react more appropriately and not have to suffer the consqences of doing stupid things you regret. mmm

Free will – one needs to aware of the condition of your mind in order to access free will happily?

ooo good video on how to get rid of Negative thoughts… https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j91ST2gtR44……

Short post for the day, hope it provides some improvements to your life!

What Motivates you?

OOO this is such a good question to solve especially when you are feeling low.

I surfed the web and found this site: It’s a test to determine what motivates you. https://www.psychologies.co.uk/tests/what-motivates-you.html. Wait none to the options even fit what I would do ok. So now what?

Lets turn to Oprah… OK here we go… http://www.oprah.com/omagazine/how-to-determine-what-motivates-you-motivation-style_1. OMG this one is fun. Especially question 2. I would choose “Sop their cars before running over me.” so funny.

2. I’d feel frustrated if other people didn’t…

  • Give me whatever I want and agree with everything I say.
  • Rearrange their schedules to accommodate my desires.
  • Listen respectfully to my opinions and ideas.
  • Consider my needs when allocating money, time, or energy.
  • Stop their cars before running me over.

I am definitely having a motivation problem according to Oprah as I didn’t even get close to a score of 6… mmmmmm Take the test and see what you can learn about yourself.

But I have to say it worked this site. I am now motived to figure out how to motivate myself. hehehehehe

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!

Back to the Drawing Board

Practice Practice Practice….

Well I have resurrected my drawing tools. My god I am rusty. I so wish my Katie Faile was still living next door to me. If you don’t know who that is, check out her work at https://modernrosie.com/collections/cards/products/submarine-seas-greetings-5×7-christmas-cards-silver-dolphins?fbclid=IwAR1S-R0rPp7y3JpWM0mL8Q8FCcnO_I2-dfyNc0QOtDoBaZBi3OgbCpo8KZ4. This is her Christmas card for 2020. She is a children’s book illustrator but can draw anything. She use to pop over and give me pointers.

This guy above is not even close. Laying down the Values first then will put in the real details of fur… Just getting the graphic down is taking forever. now I know why artists to small paintings and not large. hehehe